life at the speed of run

"How nice - to feel nothing, and still get full credit for being alive."

Sat, 18 May 2013 18:33:53 -0700

“How nice - to feel nothing, and still get full credit for being alive.”

- Kurt Vonnegut, Slaughterhouse-Five (via honeyforthehomeless)

homilius: Josquin des Prez, Plaine de dueil (chanson à...

Sat, 18 May 2013 16:57:47 -0700

homilius:

Josquin des Prez, Plaine de dueil (chanson à 5)

Taverner Consort • Andrew Parrott (1992)

Text/Translation

Venus Victrix, Michele Tosini

saved this in my drafts and promptly forgot about it. my loss (until now).

Bernal: Fine Lines on a Fair Day

Sat, 18 May 2013 14:26:17 -0700

cachronicles:

EYR

not even sleep is safe from my disenchantment.

Fri, 17 May 2013 23:55:00 -0700

i have plenty of faith in the institution itself. but chuck the wrench that is myself into the gears, and nothing is trustworthy. all week it has been a wellspring of anguish, this new barrier between the conscious and the un-. now it falls into the fold as an ultimately unsurprising failing. tension is as tension does. lessons demand learning. i have no energy to spare for histrionics. or for caring. it is, whether i care or not. effort dooms intent. here and elsewhere upon elsewhere.

new icon. leaning into a practice-room lens flare. make of it...

Fri, 17 May 2013 23:28:48 -0700

new icon. leaning into a practice-room lens flare. make of it what you will.

c0ssette: Lucretia Borgia Reigns in the Vatican in the Absence...

Fri, 17 May 2013 21:53:00 -0700

c0ssette:

Lucretia Borgia Reigns in the Vatican in the Absence of Pope Alexander VI (c.1910) by Frank Cadogan Cowper.

mythologyofblue: Home is a place you can never return to; when you do you will find it is someplace...

Fri, 17 May 2013 20:37:54 -0700

mythologyofblue:

Home is a place you can never return to; when you do you will find it is someplace else.

sfmoma: SUBMISSION: untitled (extra dimensions)

Fri, 17 May 2013 20:25:05 -0700

sfmoma:

SUBMISSION:

untitled (extra dimensions)

therumpus: The mammoth became kind of the first bald eagle,...

Fri, 17 May 2013 16:59:01 -0700

therumpus:

The mammoth became kind of the first bald eagle, the first species people really identified with America because it was so big and powerful. It was everything that a new country wanted to see itself as. And it hit people hard when more and more evidence started emerging that mammoths were, in fact, extinct. They had to change the mammoth story and rewrite their feelings about it. The new story went that instead of America being so magnificent that it was filled with mammoths, it was actually an empty place just waiting for white settlers to take it over. God had wiped the mammoth out to clear the way for us. It’s another example of the narratives we build around creatures.

The Rumpus Interview With Jon Mooallem

read this article. it is not concise. but it is imperative.

"Art is to console those who are broken by life."

Fri, 17 May 2013 00:21:43 -0700

“Art is to console those who are broken by life.”

- Vincent Van Gogh (via petrichour)

Audio

Thu, 16 May 2013 21:34:35 -0700

poetrysince1912: “Remember” by Christina Rossetti. Read the...

Thu, 16 May 2013 18:41:39 -0700

poetrysince1912:

“Remember” by Christina Rossetti. Read the poem and find more expensive poetry manuscripts at Book Patrol (this one went for £33,650).

sang a nice setting of this years ago and again this spring. the last two lines are the only ones that did anything for me, but maybe you’ll enjoy the rest.

weather update

Thu, 16 May 2013 18:37:00 -0700

it never rained. clouds were prodded into a sullen blanket only to be bowled off by a fell wind. this morning in my voice lesson i was gifted unexpected words of praise by my teacher, which i will save for later. right now i assume they were offered only because i looked as close to “hellish” as i will allow myself to be in public (haggard, stonefaced, tense) hoping to placate me in some way. good effort. also futile. later came the final diction/rep recital, the date for which my mother bullied out of me long enough ago for me to have completely forgotten her intention to attend. and attend she did, my father and grandmother in tow. i got eight measures to process this absolutely unwelcome surprise before it was time to pretend to be a gooey-eyed schoolboy leaving flowers for a girl already damned to fall in love with someone older and wiser (with the devil as his sidekick). made it through the piece fine. better than fine, “under the circumstances,” and even without them, according to my peers’ (95% unreliable) feedback.

fuck the circumstances. i would just as soon have my parents bitter about not being allowed to attend as i would have them witness me just get through something with a voice my nose has put through hell all week, supplemented by a careening and unreliable sleep schedule and a mind in a hundred places (but precious few of any use). the same goes for everyone else in the room. i want nothing to do with just about anyone at the moment. the only reason i wrote any of this down is that this is all i have time for. it is a ridiculous, puerile, pointless tantrum. but i am holding myself together too tightly to let any looser. two german pieces tomorrow morning, then a week to sit and think about what i’ve just done before juries come around. seems like i get to choose between grim/angry/”or else” energy or no energy at all; and since the former cannot be sustained for long, the answer is a pencilled-in C: all of the above.

think heavy thoughts for the shower my town may get tomorrow.

Wed, 15 May 2013 22:04:00 -0700

i doubt any drops will fall before the clouds trudge off. the microclimate clings to caprice for its constant. but any of you who are braver than i may hope nevertheless.

Audio

Wed, 15 May 2013 21:37:00 -0700

magnificentruin: center will not hold

Wed, 15 May 2013 15:08:00 -0700

magnificentruin:

center will not hold

speciesbarocus: Kometenbuch (1587). > Via.

Wed, 15 May 2013 13:37:00 -0700

speciesbarocus:

Kometenbuch (1587).

> Via.

"At the end of the day, we can endure much more than we think we can."

Tue, 14 May 2013 07:10:58 -0700

“At the end of the day, we can endure much more than we think we can.”

- Frida Kahlo (via ckgarden)
please be true. please.

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Mon, 13 May 2013 18:00:35 -0700

"Zero is powerful because it is infinity’s twin. They are equal and opposite, yin and yang. They are..."

Mon, 13 May 2013 17:55:31 -0700

““Zero is powerful because it is infinity’s twin. They are equal and opposite, yin and yang. They are equally paradoxical and troubling. The biggest questions in science and religion are about nothingness and eternity, the void and the infinite, zero and infinity.””

- Charles Seife, “Zero: The Biography of a Dangerous Idea” (via samsaranmusing)